For more about the month of Adar and the holiday
of Purim see:
The Road Map to Joy.
On the holiday of Purim we are commanded to read the
Megillat Esther, the book in the Bible that describes how the
Jewish people were saved from destruction during the time of the Persian
Empire.
The reading of the Megillah is a joyous occasion. People
come to synagogue dressed in costume, the readers use funny voices to
tell over the story and everyone has a noisemaker that is used to drown
out the name of Haman - the villain of the story - whenever that name is
mentioned.
Yet despite the fact that we are encouraged to have fun
during the reading of the Megillah, the Sages of the Talmud did lay out
a couple of rules and one of them is as follows:
A person who reads the Megillah backwards has not
fulfilled his obligation (Megillah 17a).
This law doesn't just apply to a Purim prank where the
reader hits the "reverse" button and turns the words of the Megillah
into gibberish. It also means that if a person arrives late to synagogue
and the reader is already on Chapter 7, the latecomer can't just listen
to the rest of the public reading of the Megillah and then quietly read
Chapters 1-6 on her own afterward. To fulfill her obligation, she has to
read and hear the entire Megillah from start to finish in the correct
order.
What's wrong with coming in at the middle of the story
and reading it out of order? An answer can be found in a teaching from
the Ramchal, Rabbi Moshe Chaim Luzzato, in his 18th century
work The Way of God.
Backward vs. Forward
The Ramchal was one of Judaism's greatest thinkers, not
to mention one of our most outstanding kabbalists. He made it his life's
work to explain Judaism's most basic concepts, which may be basic but
are also quite profound.
In his works, the Ramchal teaches that the purpose of
life is to perfect the soul and thereby merit to come closer to God.
Everything that happens to us is a means to help us achieve that exalted
end. In theory, we all know that what the Ramchal is saying is true and
so we know what is expected of us in any given situation - that we
should be kind, patient, generous, etc. Yet if we know what is expected,
why do we so often fail when we are put to the test?
The reason, according to the Ramchal, is quite simple:
we are living our lives backward.
We rightly believe that there is such a thing as "cause
and effect" - that our actions have an impact on the world and that
events have an impact on the kind of person we are. However, because we
usually interpret what happens in our lives through a lens that sees
events out of sequence, we don't understand what in our lives is the
"cause" and what is the "effect" and we are therefore unprepared to
successfully meet many of life's challenges.
For instance, let's say a mother decides to wash the
kitchen floor before her small son comes home from school. When the boy
comes home he says he is hungry. The mother has a pot of soup simmering
on the stove for that night's dinner and so she ladles out a bowl for
the child. The boy insists on carrying the bowl to the table. When he is
just a few steps short of reaching his goal, the child slips and all the
soup spills on the floor.
What happens next will be largely determined by how the
mother is "reading" the story of her life.
If she woke up that morning and reminded herself that
this day was going to give her unique opportunities to perfect her soul
- including perfecting the quality of patience - there is a good chance
that she will be able to calmly put the incident into perspective. She
will understand that it was God who arranged every detail of this test -
He was the one who gave her the idea to cook the soup and wash the
floor, and it was He who put into the child's head to insist on carrying
the bowl to the table. And because she has done her spiritual homework,
she will know how to respond correctly.
However, if she is so caught up in the many tasks of the
day that she forgets her true purpose in life - and at that moment she
mistakenly believes that a clean floor is the most important thing in
the world - she will probably react with an angry outburst.
Even when the mother does achieve clarity and realizes
that the angry outburst was inappropriate - and that she flunked the
spiritual test that was given to her - she still may not fully
understand what happened. For instance, if her child is often clumsy and
spills things, she might harbor feelings of anger or resentment toward
him because he so often tests her patience.
"Why can’t my child be like other children?" she may
wonder. "Of course, I would be more patient if he wouldn't do things all
the time that try my nerves."
What this mother doesn't understand is that it is not
the child who is causing her patience to be tested - the child's
entrance into the kitchen right after the floor has been washed is an
action that comes at the middle of the story. Rather, it is God Who
decided long before that her soul needs to develop this particular
quality and so He has given her this child - and all the other tests of
her patience that will come in life - to help her fulfill her ultimate
purpose.
In other words, when we blame others for our
emotional/spiritual failures, more likely than not we are looking at our
lives backward. We have left God out of the picture and forgotten why we
were placed on this earth in the first place.
However, this distorted way of looking at things can
also happen when good things take place - such as the salvation that
took place at Purim.
The Story Behind the Scenes
The Megillat Esther is unique in that the name of
God is never mentioned. Throughout all the plotting by Haman - and
counter-plotting by Esther and Mordechai - these two Jewish leaders seem
to rely entirely on their own wits to save the day. Therefore, if a
person tunes in at the middle of the story, when Esther is already
ensconced in the king's palace, it is possible to come away with the
impression that the salvation of the Jewish people occurred because of
the intelligence and skillful diplomacy of these two leaders - and that
God didn't have a part in it all.
It is only when we pay careful attention to the entire
story - from beginning to end - that we realize that the myriad upon
myriad of "coincidences" that lead up to the salvation couldn't have
just happened because of a combination of luck and skill. There had to
be someone behind the scenes who was directing every event - and that
someone, of course, is God.
The Jewish people weren't saved because Esther had
brains and beauty and she knew how to use them. They were saved because
God still had a purpose for the Jewish people in this world, and so God
chose Esther to be the means that would bring about this salvation so
that they could continue to fulfill this purpose.
And the same holds true today. The headlines are full of news about
world leaders' plans to bring peace to the Middle East. Yet to believe that it is these leaders who are running the show is to
misinterpret what is really happening in world events.
Events happen - or they don't happen - because God has a
purpose for the world. That purpose is to bring the world and everyone
in it to ultimate perfection. Sometimes it might seem like the exact
opposite is happening - that the world is spinning further and further
away from goodness - and yet our Jewish tradition tells us that this
can't possibly be so.
Therefore, to stay calm during these uncertain times, we
can do no better than to follow the dictum of our Sages. As Jews, we are
forbidden to read the Megillah backward - whether it be the Megillat
Esther that we read on Purim or the "whole megillah" that makes up
the events of our lives.