The wife of the great Chassidic master the Chozeh (Seer)
of Lublin looked at the tall gleaming candlesticks that sat on the table
and began to cry.
All Friday morning, as she baked the challah and
prepared the chulent stew, she had forced herself to stay cheerful. All
afternoon, as she scrubbed and polished until the entire house sparkled,
she had done battle with her yetzer hara (evil inclination) and
remained in an optimistic frame of mind. But now, as the shadows began
to lengthen in the room and there was no more work to take her thoughts
off the problem at hand, she could feel her spirits sinking.
The beautiful candlesticks, which usually brought her
much joy, seemed to be pointing an accusing finger in her direction
every time she looked at them. Where are our Shabbos candles, she could
almost hear them ask. Why don't we have candles to greet the Shabbos
Queen?
What could she answer? Despite her many prayers, help
had not come. There had been no money in the drawer that morning to buy
candles for Shabbos and now, just a few minutes before it was time to
light the candles, there was still no money - and no candles to light.
The Chozeh's wife's gaze shifted anxiously from the
candlesticks to the darkening sky. Soon the sun would finish its slow
descent and disappear beyond the horizon. Soon the Shabbos lights would
begin to flicker in the windows of all the Jewish homes in Lublin. All,
that is, except one.
The thought of her home being in darkness on Shabbos
pierced her heart like a dagger. As the minutes passed, her distress
became so great that the house could no longer contain her pain. She
flung the door open and rushed out into the street and began to cry.
"Ribbono Shel Olam, Master of the Universe," she
pleaded, "if I have done something to deserve punishment, I accept Your
rebuke with love. But please don't make my husband and our distinguished
guests sit in darkness because of my transgression. Please hear my
prayer and let there be light in my house on Shabbos."
Just at that moment a fine carriage drawn by four black
horses turned on to the little street. Inside the carriage sat a man - a
Jew who had long ago drifted away from a life of Torah observance. For
him the setting sun did not herald the approach of the holy day.
Instead, he was on his way to a house of entertainment, where he would
squander the precious hours in drinking and playing cards and other
frivolous amusements.
Yet despite the fact that the man didn't observance the
mitzvos, he did have a good heart. When he saw a poor woman crying in
the street, he ordered his driver to stop so he could see what was the
matter.
"I can see by your fine carriage and clothes that you
are a wealthy man," said the wife of the Chozeh. "If you could spare two
pennies..."
The man did not even wait for her to finish her request.
He quickly reached into his coat pocket and placed the two pennies in
her hand.
"Thank you," she said with deep gratitude. "You have
just now done a tremendous deed, and I bless you that the light of
Heaven should shine into your heart forever."
The Jew rode off in his fine carriage, while the
Chozeh's wife rushed to the candle maker to make her purchase. Then she
raced back to her home and, with just a few minutes to spare, she lit
her candles for Shabbos. As she watched the gaily dancing flames fill
her home with light, she brushed away a tear - one of the tears of joy
that were now flowing freely from her eyes.
In the meantime, her husband, the Chozeh, was in shul,
where his soul was also gaily dancing in expectation of greeting the
Shabbos Queen. As he uttered the beloved words of the Kabbalos Shabbos
prayer service, his soul soared higher and higher. Then, much to his
amazement, he saw something he had never seen before on Shabbos.
The Heavenly Tribunal was in an uproar, and when the
Chozeh's soul entered the courtroom all turned and pointed an accusing
finger in his direction.
"Isn't it bad enough," one of the judges demanded, "that
you bless all sorts of unworthy people and we have to fulfill your
words? Now your wife is following in your footsteps and doing the same!
Just look at who she wants us to give the light of Heaven to!"
The Chozeh looked down and saw the Jew seated in his
carriage. The Chozeh could also see that the man's thoughts were far
away from holy matters. It certainly appeared to be true that this
particular Jew was an inappropriate vessel to receive such a precious
gift. On the other hand, if his wife had seen some hidden spark within
the man, who was he to argue?
"You are right," the Chozeh told the Heavenly Tribunal.
"At this moment, the man is unworthy. But can't we give him a chance?
Shine the light of Heaven into his heart for one half hour, and let's
see what happens. If he continues with his present way of life, you may
take the light away. If he changes, however, you will do as my wife
requested and shine this light into his heart forever."
The Heavenly Tribunal agreed to the Chozeh's suggestion,
and the light began to shine into the Jew's heart.
At first the man just felt a quick twinge of discomfort,
which was just as quickly dispelled by settling back into his cushioned
seat. Then the feeling came back and he was beginning to feel positively
strange. He tried to keep his thoughts on cards and dice, but his mind
kept drifting back to the strange encounter that had occurred earlier in
the evening.
As he recalled the narrow street and the woman who had
stood crying outside, the whole scene now seemed to be infused with a
bright mysterious light. And what was more, that light was also shining
in his carriage. The light was even filling up his mind and overpowering
his vision, until he could see nothing but this pure, white light.
He put his hands over his eyes to try to block out the
light, but the light was inside him. He pulled aside the curtain in his
carriage, but the light was outside, too, and it was illuminating the
night sky. Everywhere he looked, it was the same. The whole world was
filled with light - and so was he.
"I must be going crazy," he said to himself.
And then it struck him.
"No, now I'm not crazy," he continued. "Before, I was
crazy! Wasting my life with gambling and drinking - that was crazy. But
now…"
But now, what? The Jew was filled with a tremendous
longing to change. But how to do it? He was so far away that he knew no
one who could help him. Then the memory of that strange encounter came
back, and he knew what he had to do.
The man called out to his driver to turn the horses
around. The horses seemed to be guided by some inner light, because they
flew over the cobblestone streets. When the carriage arrived at the spot
where he had stopped to give the woman the two pennies, the man quickly
jumped down and strode up to the house.
Before he knocked on the door, however, the man looked
through the window. Inside he could see the Chozeh and his guests - all
dressed in their special Shabbos clothes - seated around the Shabbos
table.
The last of the thirty minutes were ticking away, and
the light that had been shining inside him so brightly was beginning to
fade. The man felt a queer sensation, as if he was slowly awakening from
a dream.
"What am I doing?" the man whispered to himself. "I
can't be like them. This is crazy."
He stood outside not knowing what to do. Should he go
inside or return to his carriage?
He was just about to go back into the night when the
beautiful candlesticks of the Chozeh's wife caught his eye. As the Jew
looked at the two lights glowing from the Shabbos candles, he knew that
what he had just experienced wasn't a dream. Here, standing in front of
him, was the source of the light that had shined so brightly inside him.
Without further hesitation, the man entered the Chozeh's
home. He became a devoted chassid of the Chozeh, and with time he became
a leading light of his generation.