When Reb Mendele of Sokolov was still a young man, he
set out on a personal search. He wanted to learn the secret of how to be
a "real Jew." As he traveled from shtetl to shtetl, he met many pious
and compassionate folk along the way - but always something was lacking.
By the time he arrived in the village of Sokolov, the
hour was already late. Reb Mendele was tired from the many miles he had
walked that day, and so his one thought was to find a place to lodge.
However, when he happened to pass by a dilapidated hut located on the
outskirts of the town, something made him stop and linger.
Reb Mendele peered through the window, and inside the
hut he saw a poor Jew bent over a worn volume of Psalms. The man
seemed to glow as he uttered the holy words.
Several hours passed and still Reb Mendele stood
transfixed at the window. During all that time, the man never once
raised his gaze from his Book of Psalms, and Reb Mendele had no
desire to disturb him. Finally, however, sleep got the better of him and
Reb Mendele went to find a place where he could spend the night.
Although he wasn't exactly sure of the reason why, Reb
Mendele decided to stay in Sokolov. Weeks passed and then months. Reb
Mendele became acquainted with Sokolov's community, but his thoughts
kept returning to the poor Jew he had seen through the window on that
first night.
He was not surprised, therefore, to find that his feet
would often follow his thoughts. Each time Reb Mendele returned to that
broken-down hut, the scene inside was the same. The poor man sat bent
over his Book of Psalms, and never once lifted his gaze from the
page.
By now Reb Mendele knew the identity of the man, who was
a water carrier by the name of Moshele. They had never spoken, however,
and so one night Reb Mendele decided to find out more about him.
Reb Mendele went to Moshele's home and tried to engage
the water carrier in conversation, but without much success.
"How are you, Reb Moshele?" Reb Mendele asked.
"Thank God," Moshele replied.
"And your family?" asked Reb Mendele.
"Thank God," was the reply.
"How's business?" Reb Mendele said, in a last attempt.
"Thank God," said Moshele, and with that conversation
came to an end.
Reb Mendele tried several more times to speak to Moshele,
yet he never heard more than the words "Thank God" from the water
carrier's lips.
More time passed and Reb Mendele was now the Rebbe of
Sokolov. With his many duties, he did not have much time to think about
Moshele the water carrier - yet Reb Mendele never completely forgot
about the man. Even though he was now a "rebbe," Reb Mendele would still
sometimes take a walk to the outskirts of Sokolov to enjoy the sight of
this pious Jew uttering the words of Psalms with heartfelt
sincerity.
Reb Mendele was therefore surprised when one night he
saw a very different scene transpiring inside the dilapidated dwelling
of the water carrier.
Moshele was obviously celebrating some happy occasion,
because the town's water carriers, tailors, cobblers and other artisans
were all inside singing and dancing with him. As Reb Mendele peered
through the window he could see there were many joyous faces in that
crowd, yet there was one face that glowed with an especially holy light
- the face of Moshele the water carrier.
Reb Mendele felt he must know the reason for this
tremendous joy, and so he went inside. The singing and dancing came to
an abrupt halt as soon as the workmen realized that the Rebbe of Soklov
had joined them. Reb Mendele assured the men that he did not wish to
interfere with their celebration, but he was curious to know the reason
for their happiness.
There was silence in the room.
"Go on, Moshele," one of the water carriers called out.
"Tell the Rebbe your story."
Despite the urging of his friends, Moshele continued to
stand in silence for a few more minutes. Then he lifted his gaze from
the floor and looked Reb Mendele straight in the eye.
"Why are you here, Rebbe?" Moshele asked quietly.
"I would like to know the reason for this celebration,"
Reb Mendele replied, "so I, too, can share in your joy."
Moshele then invited the rebbe to sit because, as the
water carrier explained, it was a long story that he had to tell.
"Years before you came to this town, Rebbe," Moshele
began, "my mother and father passed away. I grew up in the streets and I
wouldn't have known how to distinguish the letters alef from
beit, if it wasn't for the kindness of an old man who took pity on
me. He taught me how to read the Book of Psalms, and
that's how we would spend many a long winter night - huddled around the
light of a single candle as we chanted together psalm after psalm.
"When the time came, I married a beautiful girl,"
Moshele continued, "and God blessed us with many beautiful children. I
was not blessed, however, with a good livelihood."
Moshele then went on to tell Reb Mendele about how the
years of hunger and illness had taken its toll on his family.
"We often go to bed hungry," Moshele said simply. "I
can't sleep when I'm hungry, so I stay up all night and recite psalms.
They are the only prayers I know."
Moshele paused in the telling of his tale, as if
uncertain as to whether or not he should go on. At Reb Mendele's quiet
urging, the water carrier once again began to speak.
"One night last week," said Moshele, "I just couldn't
take it any more. I ran to the synagogue and flung myself before the
holy Ark. 'Dear God,' I cried out, 'my wife and children are starving.
Please have pity on them and send me some money so I can ease their
pain.'
"Two days later," Moshele continued, "I was making my
usual rounds. When you work as a water carrier, Rebbe, the weight of the
yoke makes you keep your eyes fixed to the ground. Usually you don't see
too much down there, except dirt and things people have thrown away. But
on that day, just as I was passing the synagogue, I couldn't believe my
eyes. There on the ground were 1,000 rubles.
"I couldn't believe my good fortune," said the water
carrier. "I lifted up my eyes to God and with a heart full of joy I
thanked Him for answering my prayers - and so quickly, too!"
Moshele then told Reb Mendele about how his first
instinct was to run and tell everyone about the great miracle that had
happened. Then another voice inside him cautioned him to remain silent.
Moshele decided to listen to this voice and keep his secret for two
days. If no one claimed the money in that time, he could then be certain
the money was rightfully his.
When Moshele returned home, his wife and children were
as sad as always. How he longed to show them the 1,000 rubles and let
them know that soon their worries - and their hunger - would be over.
But he held his peace, and after a simple meal of a slice of black bread
and a few boiled potatoes he went to synagogue to daven
Ma'ariv - the Evening Prayer Service.
When he got to the synagogue, the place was in an
uproar. Everywhere Moshele turned, people were crying and moaning.
"What's happened?" Moshele asked one of his fellow water
carriers.
"It's Chana," the water carrier sobbed.
"Gevalt, has there been another tragedy in the family?"
Moshele asked.
Just the week before, Chana's husband, who had been a
water carrier, had suddenly died. The other water carriers, including
Moshele, had tramped from door to door to raise money to help Chana and
her children. Their efforts were rewarded and they raised an impressive
sum of money for the widow and orphans: 1,000 rubles.
"Chana has lost the money," the water carrier said to
Moshele. "She's frantic. We can't go knocking on doors again for her,
and she hasn't got a penny to buy even a loaf of bread."
Moshele paused for a moment in his telling of the story,
and it was clear that he was reluctant to go on. It was only when the
others in the room urged him to continue, that he once again began to
speak.
"When I heard these words, Rebbe," Moshele said to Reb
Mendele, "the ground gave way under my feet. I ran out of the synagogue
and ran blindly, crazily, until I reached a field. There, in my anger, I
poured out my heart to God.
"'Why did you have to give me Chana's money?' I asked
God. 'You own the entire world, couldn't You have helped me without
taking food out of the mouths of widows and orphans? Is this the way You
answer my prayers?'"
But on that dark night, in that lonely field, there was
no sound except the anguished cry of Moshele's angry sobs. Seeing that
he was not going to get an answer to his questions, Moshele returned
home with a heavy heart. He was so broken by what had happened that he
couldn't get out of bed the next day. But even though he stayed in bed,
he could find no rest. Every time he heard one of his children cry for
food, he was once again filled with bitter, angry tears and his whole
body shook with pain.
The afternoon was coming to a close. Moshele had not
davened Ma'ariv the night before and he had not davened
Shacharis that morning. Now it was time for Mincha, the
afternoon prayer, and a small voice called out to him.
"What's this, Moshele?" called the voice. "You’re going
to let a whole day pass by without talking to your Maker?"
"I'm mad at Him," Moshele said to the little voice.
"You're mad at Him for what He has done to you, or are
you mad at yourself for what you have done to Chana?" the voice replied.
At that moment, it was as if a heavy weight had been
lifted from Moshele's shoulders. Moshele knew exactly what he had to do,
and so he jumped out of bed and ran out the door. He didn't stop running
until he reached Chana's house and placed all the money he had found on
her table.
Chana's eyes were so full of tears of sadness and worry
that at first she couldn't see what Moshele had done. When she realized
that the money, her 1,000 rubles, had been returned to her, she sobbed
some more - only now she was crying for joy. Soon all her children were
crowded around the table, and the little hut was filled with the sounds
of their laughter and singing.
"Rebbe, as I watched them all laughing and singing,"
Moshele said, "I knew in my heart that God was trying to tell me
something. I knew that I was never going to be a rich man. I was always
going to be just Moshele the water carrier and life was always going to
be a struggle for me. But at that moment, I also knew something else.
"Poor as I am, I still have plenty of reason to be
happy," Moshele said quietly, "because I am still able to do God's will
and act like a mench. So that's why my friends have made a party
in my honor. We're celebrating how good it feels to act like a real
Jew."
Reb Mendele never forgot that night - or Moshele the
water carrier. After Moshele passed away, the Sokolover Rebbe would
repeat every year, on the water carrier's yahrzeit, this story
about the joy of being a "real Jew".